Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in and_bears_oh_my's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 28th, 2008
11:11 pm	lets start again cal consumed 1309 BMR -1700 exercise -288 Cal deficit ~700 (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
10:56 pm	in' 1017 BMR -1700 no work out total -700 not too bad! (Comment on this)
Monday, April 7th, 2008
10:10 pm	I'm trying to figure out if I should go back and try to reconstruct food over the weekend. anyways, today was bad cals in 2100 BMR 1700 No work out net calories +400 bech I wonder how many I'm plus from the weekend? It was bad, I wonder how bad. Friday bad, Sat was probably good, and Sun was way bad. Naked weight 199 (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
10:17 pm	4/3 Calories consumed 953 BMR -1700 Burned at gym -700 calorie defiicit 1953 (is that right, I'm close to being spot on target, woo hoo) naked weight 194.6 (I don't know what caused this rapid drop off, I'm sure it's water or what not but it's nice to see) (Comment on this)
7:17 am	cal 4/2 food 1300 exersize 730 bmr 1700 net -1130 naked weight at home 196 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
11:46 am	I am so deeply and profoundly sad. The feeling of sorrow permiates...it seeps, it saturates. It burrows down inside my heart and makes a physical hole. I can feel this hole--witht he tips of my fingers and the sharp insides of my ribs. Like a tounge darting over a hole in your mouth. Uncontiously, you can't help but expore it's depth. How do you remove a stain that has soaked through? How you makes something fresh and new after sitting in filth. How do you remove the sadness once it has soaked down to your toes? How do you fill the hole? Will I ever be new again? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
11:15 pm	Do the math Day one of just trying to keep the basic numbers here Cal aprox 1500 (spark people is down, the rest is figured out using calorie king) workout 550 (according to the elyptical machine) BMR 1730.4 (really, man that's low) Day end -730 cal If I kept this up I would loose a pound and a half a week (is that math right)doing it 7 days a week or 1 lb doing it 5 days. I think I can do much better tomorrow! (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 14th, 2006
1:48 pm	So I havn't made a post in like a million years! But I wanted to update! Food--I've been eating all right this last week (not stelar but allright) but I HAVEN'T BEEN TRACKING ANYTHING!!!! Oh my god, so bad!!! I have to be entering my info into SP otherwise when I don't see results I can't be sure that it's not me forgetting about a few hundred calories. (I get bad food amnesia sometimes, do you guys?) Exersise!--The good thing is that I've totally stepped up my work outs. I'm good with cardio, (actually I think I'm pretty damn studly with cardio.) I go on the ellypticals for an hour every day, and I try to go 5 miles, if I start hitting 5 miles pretty consistantly I up the resistance (right now the resistance is at 15 out of 25.) This I'm good at, the thing I suck at is strenght training, whih I know is SO importaint! After days of trying and failing to get myself to finish a worout on the weight machines I finally got over my fear and started going to classes at my gym, last week I did 2 pilates classes and a muscle conditioning class. That's huge for me. I maybe super weak and not able to do everything, but I'm not letting that stop me!! I don't feel like I can really complain about this now because I havn't been good with tracking last week (oh, and the week before, I was sick and didn't eat for 2 days, it just broke the habit.) But I'm just loosing weight SO SLOWLY!! I know I might be gaining muscle, but it's still frusterating. I've been seriously working out and dieting since febuary, I started at 222 and now I'm at 209. 13 lbs is nice and all. (Better than a gain) but not what I'd expect after so much hard work. I'm so close to breaking 200 I can taste it! (It's also supposed to be my 1st reward goal, I'm going to dye my hair blond when I get to 200.) But come on 13 lbs in 3 months, doesn't that seem crazy slow. (I guess it's more like 2 months because I was out of town for two 2 week periods.) I'm on 1200 cal a day, and I know you're going to say it's too little, but it's at the recomendation of my nutritionist, when I eat 1500 I maintain and don't loose at all. Gah, so frusterating, I just want it to be gone now!! (Comment on this)